Posted by: Kristy | November 8, 2008

Cutting footloose — minus Kevin Bacon*

These days one of the only places I can go to really be myself and to feel as if I can breath — where my head clears out and I stop shaking so hard and my heart slows down maybe a nanobeat per milisecond — is the dance studio where I teach, train and practice.

I have awesome students. The rest of the staff is like family — actually, every one there has become like family, students included. We really have hit a good balance between professionalism and working together to run a business, and caring for each other and taking the time to support each other. At 6 p.m. when I was leaving Toledo, I was talking to my mom on the telephone about how I was so exhausted and just didn’t feel well and all I wanted was to crawl into bed and disappear. I didn’t want to go to Lima, darn it!

I’m so glad I did. I got to dress up a little and feel pretty, and dance all night with fun, kind men who really understand the meaning of the word “gentleman,” and in general feel like I could be myself and breathe and let my head clear a bit. I also had a really good talk with my boss — a heart-to-heart girl talk that we don’t get to have very often. So, I guess my point is that I am so thankful I have the studio, especially during this ridiculously strange season in my life. It is very, very much fall in my life right now, and while I know spring always follows with hope and freshness and life, it’s nice to have an escape during the breeziness and chilliness and dankness of fall.

One thing I wish I had in my dancing, though, is a partner I REALLY connect with. I mean, Jay and I connect in our friendship, and that translates into our dancing in a form. And we both are good at the steps. But I miss dancing in such a way as to emotionally connect with my partner, like I had with my college partner, John. We were together for four years and I just miss dancing with him. When I graduated and we both moved on it was like losing my right arm. I miss that spark. You know, that emotion and energy that looks something like this**:

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more about “Gev & Courtney – Contemporary“, posted with vodpod

That kind of emotion. And this kind of energy and … umph!*** 😉

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Having that again would be amazing. 🙂 Or just, having a partner who WANTS to emotionally connect with me. It’s different than just doing the steps, you know? And that’s one of the most fulfilling parts of dance, for me, is the story you tell, when you can’t separate the movement from the music from who you’re doing it with. Not that I’m complaining. I have pretty amazing right now.

* Seriously, he? Is the reason I refuse to watch “Footloose.” Refuse.

** Their chemistry is astounding and this is one of my top three favorite routines from Season 4 of “So You Think You Can Dance.” Might be tied with “The Garden” for my favorite. Also, doesn’t Courtney look like the actress Rose Byrne? I just watched “Wicker Park” and they totally remind me of each other.

*** Sexiness? Yeah, that’s what I’m looking for.

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